BUT, I do need myself a job. I am so broke right now, I think I need to see a doctor (ha ha).

Have you ever been in that situation where your purse/wallet is soo empty that whenever your friends ask you to go out you have to make up some lame exuse as to why you can’t come;  “Sorry, I have to take my goldfish to the vets”

Well that’s me right now (apart from the goldfish bit).

I’m not old enough to get an actual job yet so maybe I should get a paper round – or even babysit!?

Whatever it is, I need to make enough money so I can actually leave the house!

Maybe I can make some money out of thi blog.

If enough people even bother to read it.

Which is unlikely since right now, I only have about 7 views.

Bless those 7 viewers, they probably stumbled across my blog by accident, unaware of the complete and utter rubbish I talk.

But hey, rubbish talk is entertaining right?

So come on!

Read my blog!

So I can make some money!

(Only joking…)

(Sort of…)

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And if you don’t really care about exams then just leave now, because no way are you going to be able to relate to this.

The other day I got a B in one class. Part of me died inside.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m NOT a straight A student, but  I would love to be.

I got to an extremely competitive school full of little brain boxes and sometimes I feel so inadequate next to them.

I put so much pressure on myself to do well, yet I hate revising.

I hate revising with such a passion it even scares me sometimes.

So, what the hell do I do?

I guess I better go revise.

I always end up revising, and you know what it pays of at the end!

It’s strange, huh!?

How you can hate something so much, yet you really really have to do it.

‘Cos if you don’t…well you’re screwed.

Do you know what that means?

Do you?!

It means longer days, which for me instantly means summer!

Sunshine, flip-flops, swimming pools and ice cold drinks!

Time to take out my bike and got for a bike round round my neighbourhood with the sun glowing softly on my skin and the warm summer breeze entangled in my hair!

I LOVE YOU SUMMER

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Do you ever get this small panic in your heart, as you ponder about your future?

Do you ever wish there really was such a thing as a magic crystal ball, just so you can make sure you’ll turn out alright in the following years?

I do. All the time. In fact, I worry about my future so much it drives me insane!

I know it’s not right, I know I should just live in the moment and let my life take it’s own course.

I know I should just leave it down to “fate”.

But I can’t.

What if I’m not successful?

What if nobody loves me?

What if everything I dream about, everywhere I want to go, everything I want to do, everything I want to be, what if none of that happens?

What will I do then?

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